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not about selfishness, not about being possesive. I just hate being treated exactly the same way as others. Okay, i mean, ive had enough of you using the same tactic on everyone. The feeling sucks big time, especially when both are my close friends. I feel like, just another person in your life. and why you're doing it? cause you know it works! Ive always thought that __ was something special in between us, and when i found out it wasnt, there was this huge disappointment that bugged me the whole day. its like i have one of this kinda relationship, and you have three! its really special to me, but for you, probably not. cause its a "copied and paste" version.

Somehow i feel that what ive typed above isnt specific enough.
p.s. im sorry if ive misunderstood you, but this is just what it seems like to me. guess out of the three, im the only one with heavy feelings.

School's starting next thursdayyy. excited yet afraid about it! dont like being in a new environment, but i shall see it as a chance to have a new beginning :D I can still remember myself blogging about how im crazy over vjc. now that im almost there already, the excitement kinda died, but still, really thank God for whatever he has done for me <3

 

Cant get to sleep!  Rare thing, really really rare.

Tomorrow marks the first day of the sept break, which means im supposed to start mugging agn tomorrow rawr. I dont want lah. I find myself covering my ears, hitting my head, rolling on the bed when i wake up and am reminded that the big Os are less than two months awayyyyy. Its like a hmmmmm nightmare! Yes nightmare. And plus based on the major-er papers that we just completed (prelims), its gonna be L1R5 of >20 for sure ): But prelims are supposed to be like that righttttt, like make you scared then will chiong for Os. But the thing is, i dont even feel that i will be scared etc. Really needa get rid of this complancency and "Os are much more lenient" feeling. Oh man, really need Lord's helppppp. Running out of time lah.

( See, im spending my time ranting instead of studying)

Friday was history prelim, the last memorising kinda subject! Stupid school made us clear lockers ( Yknow how freaking heavy was it! ) Shouldnt they provide trolley or something, ugh, inconsiderate. And it spoiled our plan of going town straight after school ends haiyo. So cabbed to dwi's house with our two mountains. Dwi's house very nice to slack and bathe :D machiam resort, hahaha. My mountain still in her house now! After that was the proposal at The cathay ((: chiong-ed for hof.

Saturday, create prac in the morninggg (super duper fruitful!) Still thinking how im supposed to get to SP this thursdayyyy alamak. then bao and i went scgs! For fun ((: And many attempted to chase us home to studyyy, and had to explain to everyone that, holidays lah, must take break!  Witnessed indoor board games, hilarious lah lol. Had dinner with bao jas mic cs yongh david emma at far east. Food exhibition ((:

Today, played for tkk eleven! Omgggg the kids jumped during worship! ((:  tsk. then lunched at eigheen chefs, homed and did nothing. Dinner-ed at angmokio w/ jas mic cs emma manf nelw gab vir ( according to table arrangment a S11) hahaha. And and and some void deck table after tht! I hope after Os will have more of this kinda void deck gatherings yay :D No more of these from now till Os, must control!

Scandal makers tomorrow with them ((: still thinking of how to get outta the house, zzz.
Nights people.

I chose to ignore.
*Gives myself a pat on the shoulder*
Well done bert.

FIRST OF SEPTEMBER.
Goodness lah, Its next month alrd, who can believe it D:
And prelims resume tomorrow! (Ugh)

You felt so far away from me, and I didnt like a single bit of it at all.

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All the disappointments ive got from you, shall be erased  too.
(L)